things are lookin up
on Sunday, Jul. 08, 2004 at 7:36 pm

ok, so i've been over my past entries...and i make it seem like im not happy. but that's not true!! i am happy, bryan makes me very happy. i just feel like we got married under circumstance. and had those circumstances not existed would he have ever told me he loved me (when he wasn't drunk?) i love bryan very much. it's that type of love you grow into, it's wonderful having someone with whom i can relate my day and not worry about them being bored...because honestly if he gets bored hearing about it it's just too damn bad. but see that's the great thing about bryan, he never seems like he's bored of me. i mean sure we fight and/or argue but at least we care enough about each other to get mad. i never used to get really angry with nic, and i think it's because there wasn't that kind of connection where i could trust that he wouldn't just walk away if there was too much stress in my life.

melissa and i are on speaking terms again, which is good, there was a point where we didn't communicate as much as i would have liked.

but things are lookin up.

last five
take that turn a little sharper next time - Monday, Nov. 21, 2005
the truth - Sunday, Oct. 23, 2005
the floodgates are open - Tuesday, Oct. 18, 2005
what a mess - Saturday, Oct. 15, 2005
shitty beginnings - Saturday, Sept. 17, 2005