nic came over tuesday night, it was great, until he said nigger. i hate that word, it's so ugly. and he doesn't mean it in the "ignorant" sense, he meant it as a racial slur. but he's not racist, he only said it like that because he knows it bugs me. but i just held my tongue. and when he said he had to go i didn't argue...he knew i was mad then.

i dont know if he has to work late tonight or not, i haven't heard from him. when i tried calling him earlier his phone was disconnected, but i just called him and it rang, so i left him a voicemail. i get the feeling i won't hear from him tonight.

my brother received a warrant for his arrest today, and when he called the sheriff's office they told him to come down and they'd discuss arranging a new court date (he missed the first, reason for the warrant) so i took him down to the sheriff's office, and im sitting there and sitting there and sitting there and finally i find out they've detained him for the night and that he'd have court in the morning. i feel bad for him, he's a really great guy, he doesn't deserve this shit for something he was only in the same car for. i called his girlfriend and told her, she started crying. *sigh*

im not feeling as sick today, which is good, i just didn't want to go to work. isn't that horrible?

sunday is six months... six months.

last five
take that turn a little sharper next time - Monday, Nov. 21, 2005
the truth - Sunday, Oct. 23, 2005
the floodgates are open - Tuesday, Oct. 18, 2005
what a mess - Saturday, Oct. 15, 2005
shitty beginnings - Saturday, Sept. 17, 2005